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I think it has extremely strong and true parts but I would hold off if you can and let's craft something tomorrow ... I think there is more wisdom to impart and that you can write something more complete and thought out. Which you can still do if you send this

If you choose to send it I would end on a note of compassion for her and expression of love.

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> On Apr 15, 2015, at 3:44 PM, Robert Biden <rhbdc@icloud.com> wrote:
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> Before I send Kathleen the following I wanted to get your advice. Every discussion beginning at 7:30 this morning until now has devolved into an all out fight- or actually Kathleen yelling at me and then me trying to explain and making things worse.
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> I was going to send her the following- but thought better of it before making things worse:
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> Kathleen,
> Obviously what I am saying or trying to say and what you are hearing are very different things-
> I am telling you I have a plan to address my problem. I think it's best we discuss that plan with Debbie together. I don't believe (as you just said) that my problem is an excuse for my horrible behavior and absolves me of any sin.
> I don't expect your forgiveness or affection or love right now. I know that I don't deserve that. And I know you may choose to never forgive me or love me again. I desperately hope you can and will because I love you very much.
> Out of the last 9 and 1/2 months I've been off my program for no more than 6 days. I want you to know I realize that isn't good enough but I also want you to know that I am really trying hard.
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> My question to you is how, as I work on getting healthy and better, would you like me to interact with you?
> Should I talk to you or not. Do you want me to show affection or does that make you angrier? Should I tell you where I am and what I'm doing or just leave you alone?
> None of this your fault clearly. All of this is my doing. I can't stand to see you in pain and I can't stand to be the sole source of that pain.
> I also know I've made things hard for the girls. But I do think they know how much I love them and that I will always be there for them. I don't think I've been a horrible father- I've clearly not been perfect and I am painfully aware of my failures.
> You keep saying "Do You not understand what you have done to our family?"
> I do and some days I can barely stand myself for it. But I do understand. I also think I've done some good things as a Dad and I have a lot more love to give - so I focus on that.
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> RHB
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